Does anyone ever really know what they want to be when they grow up? How this is all supposed to work and be good? Do I work? Do I stay home? Is there something in between? Can we afford it? What if it doesn’t change anything to make that sort of change? What if I still feel sad and stuck and unsure and not myself. What if this is just how I am; how I will always be. Trying so hard to want what I have and wanting to run like hell at the same time, with no idea why or where I would rather be. So many questions. Never any answers.